Thursday, December 1, 2011

A Thousand Sleepless Nights

In my last post, I wrote about some the blessings we've received because of Sweetpea's diabetes diagnosis.



That post ended up being much longer than expected.  Which is good, because it means a lot of good has come out of something that's often not good at all.

But I left out something really important.

To me, anyway.

I left out a song.

The first time I heard this song, it stopped me dead in my tracks.  It was like she was talking to ME.  About ME.  About US.

And I immediately fell in love with the music and the lyrics.

And I knew that I just HAD to share it with you!

It's called Blessing by Laura Story

Here are the lyrics...

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe


'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us

When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise
You can watch it here... just pause the playlist first...



Wow.

"What if your blessings come through raindrops?  What if your healing comes through tears?  What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're near..?"

I've cried an ocean of tears.
I've had almost 1,000 sleepless nights.  947 to be exact.  Maybe not totally sleepless - but night time has never been the same since diagnosis.

This song just speaks to me.  And I hope it does to you, as well.

It just fits so well with my previous post.  What if.... WHAT IF.... this trial is actually a blessing in disguise?

Sometime it's REALLY disguised.  And because it's MY DAUGHTER's health we're talking about - I'd still give it back in heartbeat.  But since that can only happen in my dreams, the best I can do is try to see that blessing in disguise.

I always hesitate to post things like this - not wanting to sound too preachy.  But this is me.  This my story, my journey... it may not be yours and that's ok.  But maybe through my sharing someone else might find some peace.  And so it's worth it to me.  And so I share.

You can watch Laura talk about the story behind the song here...



Wishing you peace and blessings... and a CURE!

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10 comments:

  1. This is beautiful. Thanks for sharing your connection to spirit, (I often think its odd that sharing our beliefs is now seen as trying to impose them on others)

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  2. Hallie, this is so encouraging! Just last night I was up - on the nightwatch- and I took a moment to pray. What a blessing to be up praying (not in desparation!) at 4AM. ...just to be near. Thanks for sharing this!! I'll be on the lookout for those "mercies in disguise."

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  3. I LOVE that song. : ) I try to think of all the reasons God chose me to raise a child with diabetes, and sometimes I think better me than some neurotic parent who is too busy or self-consumed (not saying I'm not neurotic sometimes..) or who doesn't love their child enough to care for them. I'd ache for THAT kid. I'd love to adopt JUST kids with diabetes. I mean..can you imagine what their outlook must be?
    I think God made me just for this. Really. I love math, love a good challenge, love to chart and make charts and books, I think I knew it all along...I was just waiting.

    And you? Perfect for this too. What would Sweets do without you?

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  4. Thanks for posting this! I've heard this song before and it always gets to me. But yesterday I was really listening to the words while it played on your blog and I was reading your post. Of course I cried. The words kept going through my head all day yesterday. I was even going to post it to my blog! Love what your friend Holly said as well.

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  5. This song spoke to my heart the very first time I ever heard the lyrics.

    It's as if it was written directly for our families.

    It's beautiful.

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  6. Love your attitude Hals. You keep our spirits up. Thank you for that. xo

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  7. that song rips my heart out...in the best way possible!

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  8. Beautiful post. Thanks for sharing the song.

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  9. I am new to the DOC, but I LOVED this post. I couldnt' have said it any better. I wrote a post on my blog to share this message as well!! Thank you for saying so eloquently what so many of us feel! I copied your picture idea for my boys...I hope you don't mind! I just loved the quote with the picture! It's amazing!! I look forward to following your posts!
    Cheri

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  10. This is one of my FAVORITE songs right now!! I absolutely love it. I went through a tough year, and it was the perfect lyrics to embrace how I feel. Thanks for posting the video for others to see and hear! And by the way, Laura was nominated for a Grammy for this song!! :)

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