It started like so many of them do
"Mom?" a little voice says from the back seat.
It's 8 am. We have not been up and dressed and out this early in weeks. Two weeks to be exact.
"Yeeees?" I answer, trying to shake off the early morning brain fog. (Hey, that's early for me. I'm NOT a morning person.)
I'm used to the conversations. She's got something on her mind. She usually does. She asks things like, "What's inside of a tire?" "How do you make paper?" "What makes cement get hard?" "If we out candles on the birthday cake for Jesus, who will blow them out?"
"So...." she begins.
I can tell it's going to be a good one.
"One day when I have a baby - if it throws up I'll take it to the hospital. And I'll find out that it has diabetes. And I'll learn to give it shots. I bet it will cry. But then it can get a pump. I'll learn how to to out the pump on the baby. And then I'll be able to put my own pump on!"
Oh my. It's too early for this. I haven't even had any caffeine.
"Well, Sweets- you know that one day when you're grown up and you have a baby of your own..... Your baby might not have diabetes. Just because you do doesn't mean your baby will.".
"Yes. Really. And you'll learn how to put your own pump on before that! Mommy and Daddy will teach you when you're ready."
"Ok. But I'm not ready yet."
"I know, Sweetie. That's ok. We'll start by just having you test your own blood sugar. You can already do that almost entirely by yourself. Then we'll learn how to count carbs."
"Ok. I just don't like pushing the button."
"I know. You'll get used to it when you're ready."
"So what are we doing after school?"
Such a sweet little conversation. I love being able to see what she's thinking about. So sweet. A little sad.
And kind of .... Ironic, isn't it? After my post yesterday about letting go.
Honestly, I'm surprised she's not already doing more on her own. She's very much, "NO! I can do it MYSELF!" in all other aspects of life.
But I figure that she will do it when she's ready. No rush. No reason to push. So we don't. And we hold that ring.... For now.
How did her day go?
44. I decided to check her before she left with my parents. I don't usually. Today I did. I had a feeling. Then 71. Then 104. Then 305. Ugh! Then back in range.
We'll see what tomorrow brings!
You just never know....
Blood sugar OR what's going to come out of her mouth!
*ps- I posted the blog "One Year Ago Today" a few days ago. I'm in the process of moving the posts still on the old blog over to the new one. That was one of those posts. It should have been back dated April 25, 2009. Sweetpea's dx day is April 27, 2010. Sorry for the confusion!!*