It's alive and thriving on the internet.
And it can make you feel about the size of a blood drop on the end of a pinkie finger.
You know what I'm talking about. You see the pictures and updates on Facebook or blogs or Twitter. The ones that show perfect numbers, straight lines, and superb control.
Things like this....
What you DON'T see in these pictures is what I like to call the DMama Photoshop...
Did you notice how it the above pictures almost all are of the 6 hour graph - NOT the 24 hour graph?? Wonder why?? It's because if I took the picture of the 24 hour graph it would NOT be as pretty. I'm sure there's a high or a low or a spike or something hiding just beyond the cutoff point....
And that no hitter? Yeah. ONE time. In almost THREE YEARS.
And I think it's important to remember that...
That these pictures full of flowers and hearts and great numbers and flat lines don't tell the whole story.
And that no matter HOW great a pancreas you may be... we all have days where the graph is just UGLY. But you don't see pictures of that as often, do you?
Pictures like this....
Those are some nice spikes and crashes, huh? Looks like some kind of sick amusement park ride.
But it's reality. If I never saw things like this it would probably mean that Sweets didn't have diabetes. And she does... so... sometimes she's high. And low. And both in a 6 hour time period.
You just don't always SEE that online.
And what you DO see...
It's not that you're not happy for these people who someone how seem to tame the beast better than you can. It's just that it makes you feel like crap! Especially if you're in the middle of a rough patch where nothing is making sense. It can make you feel like a failure and be very disheartening.
For the record, these are our pictures. I took them. And I probably posted them to Facebook. I'm guilty.
But I have to say that when I'm the one doing the posting, it's not because I think I'm such a great pancreas. It's more because I'm excited and I want to share!
I believe in celebrating the good moments - not just in Diabetes but in life in general. So I post my pics and allow myself to feel happy and proud. Those good numbers took a lot of hard work! And a little luck. And I also like to look back at them when things are not going so well as a reminder that it WILL get better and that I CAN do this!
Don't get me wrong... I'm not saying that we shouldn't post our pics! I think it's a good way to celebrate and encourage each other!
I just think it's important to keep in mind that you're never seeing the whole picture. And that you just shouldn't compare yourself to another.
I'll leave you with this quote that I just pinned to my Diabetes board on Pinterest.
We all have good days. We all have bad days. Regardless of how it might look online!