Living life with diabetes means taking risks. There are no two ways around it.
It means making choices... LOTS of choices. Every day. That have a BIG impact on yourself or the person you are caring for.
What ratio to use
How to SWAG that meal
How many free carbs to give
WHEN to give free carbs
When to monkey with the basal rates and carb ratios
What to change them to
What kind of therapy you use
There are little choices everyday. Probably thousands of times a day.
And one mistake... One little slip up... COULD have dire consequences.
It's just part of living this D life.
I think we all get immune to it after awhile. I think we HAVE to in order keep some semblance of normalcy. If we really thought about WHAT we were doing each and every time we did it... well, we'd never do anything!
One of the biggest choices we make is in the way we choose to manage our diabetes or our child's diabetes.
Stick with MDI? Or go to a pump?
This is a BIG decision. And not one to take mildly.
If you decide that MDI is right for you or your child, that is great. If you weigh the benefits and the drawbacks with an open, objective mind and decide that injections are right for you - AWESOME! Because the goal in all this is to effectively manage diabetes. So if you are doing that on MDI and you are happy with your current treatment plan... Don't let anyone make you feel bad for NOT using a pump.
That being said...
There's something I want to say.
Please, PLEASE do not be afraid of the pump.
Please, PLEASE do not fear the pump because of what happened to us.
I've gotten a few emails from folks saying that they are now scared of the pump. This breaks my heart. Truly it does.
It was never my intention to scare anyone. And certainly not to scare anyone away from the pump. I wanted to share our experience because, well, it's what I do. And because I think it's an important reminder for us all to not get too complacent. To keep up to date with our supplies and training.
Because what happened to us can happen to anyone. Whether you are using a pump or on MDI.
Low blood sugars happen. Seizures happen. They just do.
I've also gotten some emails from folks saying that we should take Sweets off the pump, that we should go back to MDI, that we don't know what we're doing...
As far as us not knowing what we're doing... Well, I never claimed to be an expert! Sometimes I DON'T feel like I know what I'm doing at all! But... I think J and I know our child and her diabetes better than anyone else--- so back off!
As for going back to MDI....
Trust me, the thought went through my head. I was NOT overly excited to hook her back up.
But... Here's the thing.
I believe that the pump is the best treatment option for my child.
My child wants to use the pump and not do MDI. And although she is young, it is HER body and HER disease so her input should count for something.
I believe that we will be able to control her diabetes better with the pump.
I believe the pump will help her live a long, complication free life.
I truly believe that the pump is the best fit for us. (Which pump remains to be seen...)
And so even though I was scared, we hooked her back up. Because I believe that it is what we needed to do.
That is the choice we made.
Are there risks? Yes. There are.
But there are risks with anything. All of our choices when dealing with diabetes involve taking a risk.
So, please, PLEASE... don't let one bad experience scare you from something that might benefit your child. Please, PLEASE don't let your fear hold you back.
Every day we make choices. Every day we take risks.
Because if we didn't.... we wouldn't really be living.